From the recording Audience of One
Lyrics
Ever since I met you
a chain of love around our necks,
Has left us all these years together
And made us both ambivalent.
Is it good to be together? is it good to be apart?
No one can see!
So I left you all alone, I thought I needed time.
I thought that I would grow.
Such a loneliness held my soul,
The blackest curse of a wretched life that I'd ever known!
It was a love that bore a hatred,
It was a sickness of a soul.
We thought our love would be so different.
But in our youth how could we know,
So much pain would find its way in
To be the focus of our lives?
And all the time we spent together
To have endured such hateful lies.
All the memories flood my mind exposing darkness
And the filthy secrets of Jekyll's Hyde.
Strange voices lead me on.
My choices, leave me blind.
My own eyes won't lead me.
Open my mind, close my eyes, leave me...
In the midst of such confusion,
What depth of feeling can exist?
Without the bondage of our children
Can love survive such painful test?
Do we work to make love better,
Or do we turn and walk away?
Do we run to find another
And leave our hearts in yesterday?
Just a thought of you in my head,
Makes a life lived with so much freedom
Feel like death.
I'd finally realized how deep the love had gone;
A love I left behind to be out on my own.
Every thought of you in my head
Made a life lived with so much freedom
Feel like death! It felt like death!
Strange voices leave me blind
my own eyes won't lead me.
Open my mind, close my eyes, lead me Home.
Take thee home.